Rich steps.....

A physical journey I have ensued for the last 7 weeks..... A journey on so many different levels all at the same time. And on reflection, all aspects so skillfully woven together as only the Universe can do...
My husband, my dog and I travelled for 'work'- a challenge and an enjoyment in itself - meeting a huge multitude of people in the time and moving through a huge array of landscapes - coast to highlands, oceans to rivers and the different species of flora and fauna that inhabit the areas..

Now returned, and four days on - I am 'waking' from a deep rest and now enjoying the process of gathering strength and feeling myself 'fill' up from Spirit's energy bowser....I have another chance again to enjoy time in this physical life...And OH !!!!!! I DO SO LOVE THIS PHYSICAL WORLD!!!
There IS a joy and there IS a magic here that is hard to perhaps recognise ALL the time - yet when we fully embrace it, feel it, recognise and ENJOY it - it is manna from heaven. It is this Manna, this pure essence that we are here to share and propagate. It is the nature of the essence that the more it is shared and LIVED, expressed and FELT - thicker and richer and more abundant it becomes - naturally!!
I am feeling that it is not just simply the 'light' now - but a denser more physical expression OF THIS LIGHT that I and many others are choosing to carry. I am seeing a vision of an army of people all carrying, not torches, but a bottle of essence, of golden nectar. We are all walking forward in a deliberate direction - totally focused and with no doubt whatsoever - there is no question , no hesitation of any form. It is a strong wave and one rich with Heart...
I look further on but realise there is no need - to keep moving forward and to look around and know there are many who share the same Heart - they are grand steps we take and all we need to remember is to enjoy them!!!!

ALL OF ME

My mind shoots around all over the place – probing here there and everywhere to search for people , situations, illusionary situations and the like to help me. Many already have – many can’t help anymore…..

………….but what surfaces from the ‘depths’ of my memory is that which came to ‘save me’ during my illness – my true self..

Such a valiant hero – always there when needed.  I have an instant image of myself, with hair, a helmet with a point, sitting astride a magnificent grey steed. I am holding the reins with one hand and an upright , extremely long spear not unlike a jousting stick, in the other… I hear the sound of the hooves of my steed as they touch the earth while he  gently moves in a circular fashion before coming to a standstill. The ‘padding’ of the earth is quite hypnotic as though padding a rhythm.....

They stop, my spirit self and steed, and look directly towards me, expectantly waiting for me to join them..

I feel for Bear who tells me , “this is your show’’.

With great excitement I alight, and sit directly in front of myself atop this magnificent steed. He throws his head back, tosses his mane, laughs and whinnies with great joy.  He doesn’t bolt off, although I wouldn’t have minded! Instead, he gently eases into a relaxed trot!! I am sitting so close to ‘myself’ that I can nearly believe I am myself!!

Upon saying that, the steed turns his head so I can see one eye – a great pool of black onyx , all the much darker as it is surrounded by his grey/white fur….I see a line of ‘me’s , sitting on him, all joined together like the joined paper cutouts from my early school days. Now they become more like the images in a cartoon when the runner goes SO fast, he has to catch up to himself once he stops.

 Where one goes, they all go. This image is staying with me – the feeling is they are all me, perhaps the many faces or phases or bodies of me, yet what is the most striking feature is that THEY ARE ALL JOINED… where one goes , they all go…whatever happens to one, somehow happens to all. If there is a ‘hitch’ in the middle then this effects the line either way..The leader leads EVERYONE – all of us…

But for now, we ‘concertina’ back into just the ONE of me and we continue our travels with our companion and guardian , the Steed.

I can feel the trip has been quite long – a whole ‘day’ has passed and we have covered quite a bit of terrain. We are heading up a mountain now – something I remember seeing way in the distance earlier in the trek. The base starts off grassy underfoot and a gentle but steady rise ensues. Now we are reaching the upper regions and the ground has become rocky with no vegetation. The steed is making his way via a distinct ‘goat’ track – which has only ever carried foot traffic by the looks. It does not appear to have been used recently at all.

We keep heading up and I notice the steed puffing now – it’s becoming hard work. I offer to walk but he is quite adamant I am to wait.

Instantly we arrive at a small grassy plateau. I slide off his back which now houses only a striped blanket. I am dressed very casually , with bare feet, no armour, no jousting stick, yet gladly, still with hair!!  We both, the steed and I , relax , feeling the beautiful energy of the place and allowing ourselves to reasonate with it – being gently soothed and warmed.

I realize I haven’t felt ‘this good’ in years – almost a feeling of ‘recovering youth’ as in before my illness..I am savouring this reconnection with myself – there is an energy here that I truly admire. It is one of being ‘just is’ – of having all that one needs and feeling that one has found ‘their place’.

I realize that it is not about ‘leaving’ and going BACK. Instead it is about embracing ALL and becoming more whole. We need all of ourselves.  To leave a part of us out whether we mean to or not, is to cut our journey into separated trails. One’s story is meant to flow with every chapter in place. Otherwise we will always be searching for the missing piece , going around and around in circles!!!!  (“like eating a bit of dried grass”! , the steed says as he chokes and coughs some out, just to make his point!)

I laugh, and before I have time to really indulge myself in this recovered part of myself, I am joined by many , many parts of myself – all talking together and gathering around excitedly yet calmly. They surround the two of us who had been cut asunder. I recognize they are performing ceremony to recognize , acknowledge and celebrate the recovery and Union – not just of the two, but of the WHOLE.

They gather around, and a pink ribbon is secured around both our joining wrists. I can feel a fusion between our inner wrists – as though something has been stamped on our wrists forever. All of us now do the same while forming a circle .  We all touch wrists fusing together and strengthen the ties we have ….

 The steed then binds us ALL together.

…………….. and the One I become is All of me…………

HEALING

As I sit and relax, the house relaxes with me. From a restlessness to a stillness. The roof of our house creaks and groans as it moves into position and then becomes silent and still. I do the same. I have no specific intent yet I have the Will to shift into a place of benefit to the whole.
Immediately, I hear a strong 'swoosh' and see fast moving colours in geometric formation fly past me, or me past them?  Bear, who I realise really IS a part of me (for are we not all part of the whole?) is right with me!

There is a  strong confidence that has not been so present before. The confidence has a stronger, more wholesome flavour to its energy which has probably been noticeably missing or certainly forgotten... To embrace this feeling is to take responsibility for it.
I notice Bear and I have come to a place of thick forest. Our feet are very solidly connected. We waste no time 'dilly dallying' around and head directly to a quite large and seemingly deep waterhole. Rocky walls surround at least half of the waterhole. I keep getting a picture of someone standing, dressed in long robes and raise his arms slowly and repetitively whilst standing on a rock on the far side of the round waterhole. I stand with Bear trying to sense .  I listen  yet I SEE the water from the waterhole actually rise - rise in droplets up towards the sky. On closer inspection, I see what appears to be dragonflies - each carrying a water droplet as they fly upwards.  Light catches on the water droplets and colours flash around everywhere like the sun moving through crystals.  The dragonflies are not carrying the droplets away, merely hovering above the waterhole.   They are having fun with their job yet there feels to be a deeper purpose - adding light, cleansing each droplet? 
I zoom out my vision so I can take in the whole...All and everything is in perfect synchronisation - forming an orchestra of nature where there is a reason for all - and the big reason that stands out is HARMONY .
Harmony is health and health is harmony - on every level and for all sentient beings.
I hear Bear say , 'to experience it is to feel it'.
I allow myself to feel and there is a vibration moving through my whole body - if I was 'musical' , I could tell you which key the sound was in.
A set of harmonics is how I would describe it with a reasonably deep reasonating tone. I realise now the harmonics shake up or vibrate the water droplets within ME and is doing the same with what I am witnessing.
 All drops are constantly in motion and vibrating.  It is this perpetual movement in the Stillness that is Nature's way of achieving balance, harmony and healing.  It all happens naturally! However, we must ALLOW  the Stillness and ALLOW this process to happen as efficiently and effectively as it is designed to - as is the very nature of the process.....
And so I Allow.................

RETREAT AND NOURISHMENT.

I allow myself to sit in the moment - to sit in a place where I feel  so centred and so grounded.  The feeling is all encompassing - one of solidity and protection; security and freedom.
The quote, 'Man Is Born Free But Everywhere Is In Chains' comes to mind - I have 'chased' and hunted freedom all my life and I feel it is now I am 'tasting' it.! The flavour releases itself in my being as a gentle explosion of bliss - expanding and spreading out like the rays of the sun as it opens to a new day. 
A wonderful release.........

I notice I am with Bear - we are both sitting on a hill watching the grand display of the sun, The open peacock's tail in all its splendour flashes through my vision.
I turn to Bear who is still looking at the sun.  He does not take his eyes from it.  I'm feeling a little anxious - wondering if this is the dawning of the sun or the setting of the sun?
It matters not which for the sun is in all its glory.  This calms me.

We wait and we watch....... Slowly patches of gold alight the earth and I realise then it is a dawning.  This brings me great joy.
"You do not need to delve into the dark or the depths of your fears, for light is being shed on all your woes.  You are being granted asylum and as such will be required to fulfill tasks for the flourishing of the whole."
As I feel this, I am seeing another vision of the gardens of a monastery, a sanctuary. I watch and feel the roles of the monks - the tending of the gardens, the tasks they perform not just out of necessity, but out of choice and desire. The enjoyment and fulfillment these profoundly simple tasks create.
I note how the monks also have time to fulfill and enjoy other activities - learning and heartfelt connection.
It matters not who does what - for all give of themselves, their gifts and their skills freely for the peace, harmony, balance and flourishing of the whole.....................

And this is now........

STILLNESS AND RHYTHMS

There is such stillness outside that is is quite extraordinary as light comes to the day. Even the birds seem reluctant to move around too much and disturb the atmosphere even though they’re singing their morning tunes.

There is no hurry for right now – it feels as though there is all the time in the world and we are in ‘universal’ time. I feel the essence of time – about moving or slowing or stopping along with Nature. To change with her,. To listen to Nature and her rythmms and we will know ‘what time it is’. We have our own inbuilt rhythm-maker, which, although still follows Nature’s time zone, uniquely expresses itself through us. Are we a flower or an evergreen, do we shed our leaves with Nature’s changing time? Maybe that is a surprise to us as well. Only in a particular time do we find other expressions within us – ways that only emerge following Nature’s rythms or when our rhythm aligns with Hers????????

I look to Bear, and around the landscape we have been in for a week or two now. The wolves are with Bella in this world and I am not to follow them at this time.  Bear strongly moves my focus and attention , still within this world, yet to my own vision. I am on a small hill out in the open. I have moved further than my first point of entry with Bear but still, not much further on. Bear reminds me that ‘distance’ cannot be judged in the old way. For look what has occurred within this space of movement. There is a different feeling, a different perspective, a different experience at every turn and every view….A miracle in itself…So within todays step, even though I can see where I have been the last  week or two, it is totally a new experience – offering new lessons, insights, miracles and always holding the magic of life itself…This is ‘making the most of life’ – feeling the very space where one is at any particular time.  Feeling it is living it! To wonder of the future and worry of the past is to move into a space that is not concurrent with Nature’s (or our own) rhythm so can not be felt. It can only be felt if that vision is granted in the present space. So attention and focus need to be maintained with the stillness….Waiting is being still with a different pace – still part of the rhythm, it just requires a different step. All steps, including this step or space , is to be savoured, embraced , lived and enjoyed!!!

And this is how it is…..

A SENSE OF Humour.

I am standing with Bear in a wide open area - flat rocks, grass and magnificent sunshine. My mind has been using all sorts of distraction techniques to divert me from entering this space....It feels so good when the Heart directs proceedings (as I hope to always do in time). And one thing I notice is that the mind actually loves it! For now it is in its rightful place.....To just allow things to be as they should be, as they naturally are - then peace and harmony reign..
Back to this wide open world. Bear takes off running and I can see his coat glistening in the sun and the way it moves and separates and comes back together again with each step he takes. He is such a delight. I run with him. What a feeling of freedom!!! He reminds me to really FEEL the earth as it comes into contact with my feet. As I focus on this, I feel as though the earth is enjoying a 'massage!' It is the sense of joy and lightheartedness that makes the difference. She in turn offers wonderful support - solid and strong. I am recognizing this contact with the Earth is vital - so, so vital. Often this is abandoned in people's search for higher or lighter ways of being. It is only with the contact of the earth ,can the vitality offered by life, be felt and embodied....One must be out 'feeling the earth'......There are no two ways around this - this is how it is. And I am no exception Bear strongly reminds me..The contact with the earth is also 'practicality, realistically etc'. There needs to be an awareness of this just as much as there needs to be an awareness of that which is above, beyond and a lot greater than we can imagine.
I see Bear tell me , "this is the real deal". Yet within the 'real deal' - there is a sublte but spacious place or way to manoeuvre - and this is from or within a place of 'humour' - lightheartedness,
I am able to feel the 'lead weights' that may fill my heart at times. I realise now they do not come from the earth or the practicalities of life. They come from my BELIEF they do!! I have been falsely stuffing my suitcase, so to speak , with stuff that is in fact useless for my journey and then taxing every part of me by having to cart it around..!!!
Bear reminds me to just notice this - no feelings attached. It is from here that one must regard it with a SENSE OF HUMOUR. For to berate oneself just adds to the load!!!!
So, to laugh at oneself is often overlooked yet is a Natural law. To laugh at oneself is not a 'superficial surface-only' laugh. It goes way beyond. In fact, something doesn't have to have a massive joke attached to it in order to 'laugh'. To 'laugh' is a response of joy, of lightheartedness, of movement, of shaking off. It is a way of being......an energy to hold at all times in our awareness.
A 'sense of humour' is indeed just that - it is a 'Sense'. A sense of smell, of taste, of sight - a sense of humour. To develop this sense in oneself is a strength.
I ask Bear ways to go about developing this sense. "Bring the light into any and every situation.. Allow the light to dominate, allow the light to lead. Create a light 'trigger'  within your being. Develop your sense of light.
I look around and notice Bear and I are totally in the light. We are light enough to continue our journey.

Being Me.

I immediately feel SpiritBear's presence - hurriedly guiding me to 'somewhere'.  He is also talking quite quickly as we go.  "You need to recognise that your passions are also your gifts and your strengths. No longer are your strengths to only be something you call on in need, but instead to be the basis of your life - your focus . "
This exchange is more than a passing comment that needs recognition. It is an AWARENESS that needs to be nurtured and stepped into - an awareness that I (and others perhaps) , need to embody on all levels - "Become what you are"....
It seems to be about giving myself 'wholus bolus' to this passion, dream, path. It is even more than these descriptions.; it seems to be about GIVING MYSELF TO MYSELF!!!!
I look to Bear who confirms this feeling within me. ''Yes!!! Give yourself to yourself!  What greater gift could you give to yourself???''
He sees I still have some 'reservations' and I have the feeling he wishes to ease these away.

My attention is automatically drawn to our present whereabouts - Bear has lead me to a small stream which is accompanied by well -spaced beautiful trees.. The sound of the stream intensifies as we approach it - Bear grasping my hand with his paw to guide and lead me. We step onto stones and then stand waist deep in the stream which has now increased in size.
I watch myself and get a familiar 'weird' feeling in the present physical moment. Bear tells me I need to stop 'watching myself' and 'Be myself'.... so, in journey space I become the only one - the one in the water. Bear gently lays a paw on my head and even more gently pushes me downwards, so I am fully submerged. Bear joins me to make sure I am okay. It is a beautiful feeling and reminds me of my diving days. I am in another new world. I feel so peaceful here in spite of there being so much movement around me just under the surface of the water.
Bear points to my foot and encourages me to "take off the anchor". It is then I notice I have a rope tied around it. I slip it off and swim freely. OHH!!! Freedom! I can move in any direction at any time without any encumberances....I wonder if we are 'going' anywhere now...
There are two things I sense. One is a still open and deeper area I can swim TO . And the other is staying where I am and allowing the fast and noisy flow of the surface water to take ME.
I look to Bear and now see another possiblity - being in the deeper , greater option amidst a stronger flow. "Still waters run deep".
The sun is still able to reach this depth I have now moved towards, the flow is gentle and slow yet SO strong - it feels so safe. I feel so protected and firmly guided...I look again to Bear , and along with the feeling I have, I KNOW THIS is where it feels right. It is this feeling I choose to hold and to be part of - it is this feeling that shall guide me along my path. It is the feeling of being truly deep within my Heart.. It is the feeling of being truly home.
I look at Bear who seems to be getting out of the water. I race to follow him and he gently pushes me back to this deep, strong place. It seems unusual as I usually 'come out' with him.  THIS time, he urges me, YOU are to STAY. Try out this new place - allow yourself to grow accustomed to it. No longer do you have to 'leave' - this space is not only FOR you - it IS you.................For now, live your life from here.......
I watch as Bear fully steps out of the stream, shaking his sodden coat and move back out into the trees from whence we came.
I , however, stay in the deep, strong ,warm sunlit waters and just Be Me.......

Peace and Patience

This feels like the first opportunity I have given myself for a while to align myself with the inner world - to listen for longer than a millisecond at a time! THAT, can become very disjointed!!!
I do not sit alone - my dear four legged stoic friend Bella joins me in shared comararderie.....

So I sit and I listen, enjoying the stillness and expanding 'nothingness'.  It reminds me of the feeling I used to get as a late teen - a girl who had taken off on an adventure from one end of the country to the other - first stop the tropics!! Finding a secluded beach with white sand, warm tranquil waters and just Nature for company.  A swim in the sea and then lying down on the sand, the sun engulfing me in his rays - drying the salt on my body and then moving through my skin, to my bones and finally to the centre of my very being.
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Heaven!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My focus changes and I am recognizing the absence of 'mind obstacles' and without them, how refreshing and perfect is my journey.  And in this clarity, I , and I am sure All, truly DO know who they are and why they are here.  The simplicity is profound and yet we find it so deceiving when it is truly honest and so straightforward....

I see I am 'looking out', 'looking across' a landscape which is quite empty, open and sparse.  There is minimal light so it gives me a sense of the beginnings of dawn......I then feel SpiritBear who is beside me and reminding me to relish and enjoy this moment.  For it IS quiet and peaceful.
The Peace shall continue , yet the 'pace' shall change.  It shan't be hectic yet it shall be fully engaging.
The Sun DOES burn brighter yet it burns brighter and hotter in ALL of us - enabling us to offer more warmth , more light and more inspiration to all around us.
I hear, 'so allow the dawn to unfold in its time - Be Patient.  One cannot change Nature - when the dawn is coming, then the dawn IS COMING; and IT IS COMING.'

The Dream Gaze

There is an intensity surrounding and pervading all at this time. It is calling for an unwavering focus, an unwavering presence - a matching intensity.
Within this intensity there must be total calm - not even an inkling of turbulence. A crystal clear clarity.
The vision that now appears in front of my eyes is one of a cat and a mouse. The cat has an intense focus and concentration on the mouse, watching for ANY and EVERY sign of movement - or anything else for that matter! There is an alertness and astuteness that is just magnificent - a mixture of tools of precision - art in the making.
The cat looks up and I am drawn to its round green eyes - the markings in its iris, the opening and closing of the black doorway of its pupil into another world. It seems to be tempting or teasing me - daring me to enter this other world. I check with Bear on my feelings and then let the cat know I won't enter without Bear's company.  Bear knows the cat will not be happy with this.
And as true to Bear's feelings - the cat, having lost 'interest' - loses its gaze and wanders away. Seems I was to be the mouse!
My attention is then drawn to the real mouse!!! He wipes his brow and sits down, leaning back on his arm. '"Phew!!! That was close!" he lets out. "I was doing okay holding his gaze, but your help was welcome - a good distraction."
We all sit and I wonder of this experience and how it relates to me. Confronting fears? Holding one's ground? Maintaining presence and awareness? Yes, I am sure of all these things as I see nods of agreement from my furry companions, both big and small!!!
There is something else though - something I am staring in the eyes or is staring me in the eyes!! Strange - usually the Helpers give me more of a clue. But this time, they are waiting for me and are prepared to sit there for as long as it takes. I hear the words - ''you must see it through to the end" . The feeling is 'it' has been long, has been a long process - but there is no room for wavering attention now.  More than ever the 'gaze'- the hold must be maintained and the dream behind it clearer and stronger than ever before.  Dig deeper and access the strength and energy of the dream. This will sustain you, move you and release you to your true place in the way of the universe.
And THAT is what you need to remember!!! Be the immovable rock that only the universe can shift. The light of the universe IS  your focus......
Dig deep and become your dream - for that is who you are...
Everything that has gone before you has brought you closer to your dream, to the Truth of who you are.  It is the Truth that will be shared. So bring your attention and your unwavering gaze 'here' for this is where your roots lie..

The Second Posting Which Led To "time to swing".

Good Morning Bear....What drives me to write and speak so early to you? Worry and Concern....
In many ways I fel I am living with shadows of the past....
I am looking at myself walking with a trail of 'exhaust'behind me.  It is a misty, streamed cloud that is connected to me and following me like a train.  I hear Bear say it is not about 'cutting' it off.  It is the 'vehicle' itself that needs attention and is putting out this exhaust.
I have the impression the 'old' thoughts, patterns and attitudes are the things that need 'tossing' out.  NEW choices need to be made to activate this.  Really see what is not you or part of your being - that which is SO ingrained in your thought patterns that you have taken it for granted that is IS you!
I sit and imagine the big, big job to do this.  I automatically have the impression that I need not sit andsift through everything - in fact that would be a waste.  Non action means 'things' just settle to the bottome.  They need to be stirred up and addressed as they surface.
THEREFORE........conscious awareness is what is needed in order to recognize these 'unnatural' pieces as they surface.
The testing procedure???  Tap it as one does a wine glass-if it rings like crystal it is authentically you-and if it only emits a flat tone-then it is NOT you- toss it out!!!
The Ring of Truth - that is what you are after!!

Now - WORRY...Worry is a terminal disease...A learnt behaviour originating perhaps from being protected or overly portected, but more importantly BELIEVING that there MUST be something to worry about!  This state of being then becomes a permanent fixture, an addiction.  Worry is like being netted.  Walking around with a fishing net draped over you - hampering all movement - giving up before you start because you've already 'caught yourself out or up.'
I look to Bear with a wingeing expression.  He takes no part in it.  There is absolutely no emotion there with him whatsoever. He tells me I can survive with or without it (the worry factor). What really is the key question is wherher I choose to want to REALLY LIVE or not?!!  Do I want to be all I can be? Or do I wish to remain hampered by my self limiting net?

Upon wondering how to remove it, I recognize a few things.  One is that I seem to relate it to 'love' - love from family especially. I have held onto the net believing it is their love, believing it is love. My fear is in throwing this away that the two go hand in hand.  But in Truth, and Bear agrees, that is complete bollocks!!!  To try to think I am tricking myself with this realization is only thoughts of fear and also belongs in the bollocks'basket!!! Those fear driven thoughts are what a re creating the 'fumes' and the pollution and hampering who I truly am!!
Yes - Alex - You are right.  All IS choice......

I begin to 'think'  - this time again about work concerns.

I look to Bear who is telling me that at this very present time - right now - it is not relevant.  He is directing me back to the fishing net scenario and wanting me to move on...In Truth, the most important thing at this time is facing or recognizing what it feels like to walk unencumbered and to mbecome familiar with this new mobility and exposed genuine me...Bear stresses how necessary this is.  I MUST go through this, I cannot escape this and in fact, I am in it.  To walk away from it would be to choose an inappropriate path which would clog me up well and truly...
It may seem the opposite but conditions never have conditions been more favorable.  I have set myself up for a win as all other 'pollution' (karma etc) has already been dealt with and faced and cleared.  Now, I am only dealing with the remnants which are so, so minimal. They just appear big.   All the piles of rrbbish that had accumulated over the net have been cleaned out. Now we just have the net. Do not be confused believing the net is part of you. Love is Truth, love is yo - the net is a net. It really is that simple. When you get down to the simple Truth, if it aint love, it aint true and it aint you.....
I look to Bear and begin to be concerned of the disposal of the net. My over concern perhaps or rather UNECESSARY concern brings me the rising feeling of constriction over my heart - the net!!!!!!!
Recognition is dawning over me! I see how when I do not have worry the net just disappears in a puff. As soon as I worry needlessly, it magically reappears. It truly is an illusion. Oh such a good one - so subtle and yet so debilitating......
Bear says, "yes!! This is what has been hampering your movement. You do not have to live with it. However to do this you need to live with the awareness of it thus being in a position to make a choice and a strong choice at that!!!  There is absolutely no value or purpose to needless worry....

I ask Bear if there is a way I can truly and consciously anchor this physically, in the physical world?? I see him blowing gently yet strongly into my Heart. We merge.
I now see the difference between separation and individuality. They are two different things.
Separation is the separation from our Spirit, from our Truth, from our Heart.
Individuality is our uniqueness and the gift that we have to offer to the world.......

TIME TO SWING!!!

Sitting at the computor, I allow myself to look inwards.

My first vision is of myself at a fair or carnival. I am standing next to an icecream stall with a waffle cone icecream in my hands and licking the icecream madly! There are people milling around everywhere with all the sounds of a busy carnival. I move further into the vision and merge with my icecream-eating self and note my senses are on high attention. I am scanning the crowd for my trusty friend SpiritBear. It is sooo busy here.

SBear gives me a 'pssst!' , waves his paw and moves back behind the flap of a canvas tent. I follow him.

I look around and notice we are in the main tent - empty trapeezes hanging up high. A couple of them are gently swinging, their bars are decorated with sparkle and there are soft lights on. It feels like an invitation!! And looking at Bear, I know it is so.

We walk over to the sawdusted centre ring and I look up. My God, they look SO HIGH up!

Bear is encouraging me to go up. He pulls on a rope for me to hop on to. There is a net in place which he points out, a safety net, but assures me I have excellent balance to do this anyway.

I have no sense of fear and trusting Bear, I take the rope. It brings a joy and exhilaration to me as it effortlessly escalates me to one of the swings - the only swing that is not tied up. I feel a definite connection with the swing believe it or not! Bear waves me onwards from down below. It truly feels like a different world up here!

A small animal races across from one of the wires- arms outstretched with a silver bowl full of powder. I dust not just my hands, but my whole self.

"Timing" itself is the centre of focus at this time. "Timing" is everything.

I look to the swing again which has its own natural rhythm and allow my own natural rythm to synchronise. We connect and swing through the air together - both as ourselves yet both swinging to the same rhythm. Although I have a tendency to 'race ahead' I focus on staying aware of OUR swinging.

I notice then the swinging becomes more intense, deeper, richer and moving me to heights I know I could not have achieved by myself. Together we are in communion with something far greater than just ourselves.

I realise this feeling is what I strive for yet it cannot be achieved alone.

I take the time to really feel what is happening. Slowly and timelessly our swinging comes almost to a standstill.

The rope with its foothole shakes itself at me, grabbing my attention. I move across to it from my swinging companion and am returned to the sawdust floor and SBear.

I ask Bear of the significance of it all. He says, "Timing, timing, timing. It is time NOW. It's time to 'swing'! Do not hesitate . Move with yourself, move with your Heart. Shake it baby , shake it!!!!!!!!!"

We sit down now back near where Bear and I entered the tent. I wait for the whole experience to move through and settle into my Being. I look to Bear to 'check' my understanding is true..

This being my first 'blog', I really wanted the first 'journey' I put out there to be a grand slam winner! I wanted it to be as amazing as I know they are. I realise that I really am NOT "swinging ALONE" - 'doing' it by myself. Great Spirit, "the Force" or whatever name one may use, is ALWAYS in partnership with us and as long as we are true to our own beat, will always share the load....An audience is not necessary, we must start somewhere. When the timing is right, it is time to offer our gifts in the main ring no matter what else is happening, or not!

Stay with the rhythm and move with Spirit and you shall reach heights that you'd never have been able to imagine........