Good Morning Bear....What drives me to write and speak so early to you? Worry and Concern....
In many ways I fel I am living with shadows of the past....
I am looking at myself walking with a trail of 'exhaust'behind me. It is a misty, streamed cloud that is connected to me and following me like a train. I hear Bear say it is not about 'cutting' it off. It is the 'vehicle' itself that needs attention and is putting out this exhaust.
I have the impression the 'old' thoughts, patterns and attitudes are the things that need 'tossing' out. NEW choices need to be made to activate this. Really see what is not you or part of your being - that which is SO ingrained in your thought patterns that you have taken it for granted that is IS you!
I sit and imagine the big, big job to do this. I automatically have the impression that I need not sit andsift through everything - in fact that would be a waste. Non action means 'things' just settle to the bottome. They need to be stirred up and addressed as they surface.
THEREFORE........conscious awareness is what is needed in order to recognize these 'unnatural' pieces as they surface.
The testing procedure??? Tap it as one does a wine glass-if it rings like crystal it is authentically you-and if it only emits a flat tone-then it is NOT you- toss it out!!!
The Ring of Truth - that is what you are after!!
Now - WORRY...Worry is a terminal disease...A learnt behaviour originating perhaps from being protected or overly portected, but more importantly BELIEVING that there MUST be something to worry about! This state of being then becomes a permanent fixture, an addiction. Worry is like being netted. Walking around with a fishing net draped over you - hampering all movement - giving up before you start because you've already 'caught yourself out or up.'
I look to Bear with a wingeing expression. He takes no part in it. There is absolutely no emotion there with him whatsoever. He tells me I can survive with or without it (the worry factor). What really is the key question is wherher I choose to want to REALLY LIVE or not?!! Do I want to be all I can be? Or do I wish to remain hampered by my self limiting net?
Upon wondering how to remove it, I recognize a few things. One is that I seem to relate it to 'love' - love from family especially. I have held onto the net believing it is their love, believing it is love. My fear is in throwing this away that the two go hand in hand. But in Truth, and Bear agrees, that is complete bollocks!!! To try to think I am tricking myself with this realization is only thoughts of fear and also belongs in the bollocks'basket!!! Those fear driven thoughts are what a re creating the 'fumes' and the pollution and hampering who I truly am!!
Yes - Alex - You are right. All IS choice......
I begin to 'think' - this time again about work concerns.
I look to Bear who is telling me that at this very present time - right now - it is not relevant. He is directing me back to the fishing net scenario and wanting me to move on...In Truth, the most important thing at this time is facing or recognizing what it feels like to walk unencumbered and to mbecome familiar with this new mobility and exposed genuine me...Bear stresses how necessary this is. I MUST go through this, I cannot escape this and in fact, I am in it. To walk away from it would be to choose an inappropriate path which would clog me up well and truly...
It may seem the opposite but conditions never have conditions been more favorable. I have set myself up for a win as all other 'pollution' (karma etc) has already been dealt with and faced and cleared. Now, I am only dealing with the remnants which are so, so minimal. They just appear big. All the piles of rrbbish that had accumulated over the net have been cleaned out. Now we just have the net. Do not be confused believing the net is part of you. Love is Truth, love is yo - the net is a net. It really is that simple. When you get down to the simple Truth, if it aint love, it aint true and it aint you.....
I look to Bear and begin to be concerned of the disposal of the net. My over concern perhaps or rather UNECESSARY concern brings me the rising feeling of constriction over my heart - the net!!!!!!!
Recognition is dawning over me! I see how when I do not have worry the net just disappears in a puff. As soon as I worry needlessly, it magically reappears. It truly is an illusion. Oh such a good one - so subtle and yet so debilitating......
Bear says, "yes!! This is what has been hampering your movement. You do not have to live with it. However to do this you need to live with the awareness of it thus being in a position to make a choice and a strong choice at that!!! There is absolutely no value or purpose to needless worry....
I ask Bear if there is a way I can truly and consciously anchor this physically, in the physical world?? I see him blowing gently yet strongly into my Heart. We merge.
I now see the difference between separation and individuality. They are two different things.
Separation is the separation from our Spirit, from our Truth, from our Heart.
Individuality is our uniqueness and the gift that we have to offer to the world.......
